Change is the Constant

Today is the last day of 2010 and I couldn't be less enthused. I began 2010 with a bang and surrounded by people that no longer stand beside me. Now I am approaching the year end, and there's only a few left. Is this what is to be expected? I would be a fool to end this on such a sour note, especially when every year new and exciting events take place. For 2011 I have a promising internship planned, Graduation, and hopefully my transition from girl to woman. Adulthood seems to work like a muscle to be exercised and built up. Trust and believe there will be no failure to launch here... Recently, I'v caught myself being reminiscent. My mind wanders over ex's, old friends, and family that I no longer have relationships with. Each one has played a role in my 22 years that I can smile about when thought about. There is a reason that they are gone though, and that is the best lesson learned. People are truly in your life for seasons. While the radio blasts tunes from 201

"The weather outside is frightful, and the fire is sure delightful. There's simply no place to go -Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow". Wish this were just the theme song to the festivities, but on this 27th day of December 2010 is is snowing like the blizzard of '96. The blizzard of 1996 was one of the most memorable for the East Coast because New York City actually shut down. Something close to that is possible today, and it is quite exciting when there is little mental stimulation around. Although, that won't be in short supply during the coming months, and in 2011 I truly have to perform at my best. Being around family is sometimes painstaking, yet generally enjoyable. The painstaking moments are when I'm asked about my relationship status, as if my family is Facebook. Enjoyable when the cards and games come out -I always enjoy good competition. Nonetheless, the holidays are reserved for those that have been there since day one. Friends and lovers ha

It's quite difficult to rely on someone else entirely. When we are born, our parents are the weight in our world, but then again we have no one else. As I have grown, the phrase "independent woman" became more of a lifestyle. Surging my own path through life filled with my own mistakes and all of the lessons learned. Few days ago I received a rude awakening on this whole "independence" thing, realizing I was not so far off from a child. In fact, I maybe nothing more… The semester is over and finals are the next order of business.

It has been entirely too long, but don't think I've just been sitting around twiddling my thumbs. Writing is my job, with the payment of a degree of course. I've been manufacturing papers at a massive rate and they also happen to be good ones. The semester is almost over, but not too long ago I was just entering. This upcoming winter semester I will not have the pleasure or enjoying the month off. I have taken up an internship with Uptown Magazine and taking a History course. I also have to study for a CLEP Exam in Spanish. This exam will allow me to skip taking my Spanish courses depending on how well I score, so wish me luck! Everything is changing around me slowly but surely. There are only a few left standing. ...I don't have much to offer. I just know that I want to be experience life as an adult, but I still feel like a child. It's a reoccurring theme.