Holy Arguments & Disagreements

I was sitting with my Grandmother watching T.V when I flipped to the channel that shows a recording of mass at a Catholic church. Of course my grandmother, a devout Catholic, asked me to stay on this channel till the mass was over. I agreed, and took the time to truly focus on what the pastor had to say.

He began by bringing up the sweltering heat that is hugging New York. He asked us to not complain about nature, and to avoid asking God for help during times that may seem hard to bear. He then continued with the story of Moses in Exodus. God heard the cries of the people, and sent Moses as a savior for the slaves. It seems God does not approve of slavery. It also seems that God answers the prayers of man in the bible, but I wasn't yet convinced.

As a black American, I am fully aware of the people that built this country. The darkskin that was broken and bled to ensure that I could sit here, and blog today. It maybe cynical or maybe sacrilegious to question the motives of Him, but I just have to ask: Where was God during the enslavement of African Americans? Okay, I'll go outside of the color realm, and ask where was God during the Holocaust?

I do have a theory. During the biblical era, God seemed to manifest himself in so many ways. He used ethical men to do his work on Earth. Were there no men ethical enough to break the chains from my ancestors? Were there no men brave enough to bring Hitler to his knees? These questions circled though my mind while listening to the pastor. In truth, these questions have been circling through my mind for years. I blame higher education. I also thank higher education.

The bible is a man-made text. From the binding, to the pages, to the scripture, it is a product of man. For this reason I'm not entirely sold on the ideas within it. It's a constant struggle.

I asked a Professor how it's possible to believe in the bible alone when so many ancient texts(religious texts) carry similar stories. From the Mahabharata to the New Testament there are numerous similarities. Does this equalize the "god" in all of our religions? She told me that she had also questioned these things in her youth, but as she got older, she needed something to have faith in. She gave her faith to God...

Her answer was beautiful, and honest. I'm sure I would have nothing to question if the bible wasn't used a resource to fuel ignorant hate. The text was also used to enslave and belittle the same African slaves mentioned earlier. Slave masters used segments of the "good book" to explain the reason for black suffering. Simply, they made God a racist. In that instant, the sky should have gone black as their skin and the hand of God should have reached down to smite them. It could be because of this that my Professor felt she needed something to believe in. She needed something that she believed was inherently good because of the inherent bad in man. Free-will was Gods gift to us, but it's also part of what makes people believe in him more. How could they deviate from Him, when human nature and free will are running rampant?

... I've yet to think of an answer that doesn't follow with a question.

Free Will:

Then there is always the question of humanity.
Humanity: The fact or condition of being human; human nature.
I question God without questioning those responsible. As if the metaphysical is solely responsible for the physical.

It seems there maybe only one answer that falls short of explaining anything: God is no babysitter.


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