Pride Goes Before The Fall

The job market hasn't been kind to me since graduating John Jay. Each interview feels like a first date with no follow through. They tell me how "perfect" I am for the position, and the "growth" within their individual companies, but then I'm still left unemployed. It could be that they come across someone more qualified, but what I've been hearing most is the distrust in recent grads to commit to a position. Are recent grads supposed to tie themselves to positions even when more promising offers surface? I'm not too sure I can guarantee an employer that I will remain stagnant, but I can guarantee great work while I'm there.

I'm not sure about everyone else, and I may sound silly, but my confidence resides in my current endeavor. While in school, I was bombarded with work that resulted in positive reinforcement from Professors and peers. Each and every paper was given a grade that then added to my overall self-esteem, but now that those days are over, and I find myself lacking in confidence. I was grounded by the support system that the college provided. That's lost in this unforgiving job market. I even find myself embarrassed by being unemployed.

Within each and everyone of us there is an inkling of faith that pushes us along. It maybe faith in religion or faith in a loved one, but my faith seems to reside in my accomplishments. The lag in accomplishments equates to a decrease in overall self-confidence. I've purposely missed calls from friends, skipped out on lunch dates and gone as far as to completely avoid the over-asked question, "So, How have you been after graduation?" and when they ask, I hear, "Are you working towards anything at all?". My answer is not the one I am willing to admit to.

Recently, President Obama brought a bill to congress. The American Jobs Bill aims to support small businesses through tax breaks, and re-build infrastructure. While the job lacks in increasing government and state jobs, it is a fair try by the President. He seemed adamant about getting congress to pass this bill.

As a person directly affected by the economy, I can only hope that something is done, somewhere.

I know it isn't right to avoid people because I don't want to talk about my current employment woes, but I have far too much pride. Pride goes before a fall. My mother repeats that to me, and I have yet to learn anything. There is no lone sufferer in this economy. People with mortgages and families to support have been jobless for longer than I, but thinking of others only lasts but so long.


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