Spinning Like a Top

This week has been interesting. I've received good news, bad news, and I have experienced a roller coaster of emotions.

1. During the early part of my week, I was taken into a meeting with the Director of my department, and the CEO. In this unplanned meeting, they told me that my department would be moving to New York City. They also gave me a raise. I was initially very pleased with this information because I just started receiving the bills for my student loans. Yes, it is more than I am making now, but not enough to truly support myself. On the other hand, New York City is where my heart lives.

 2. After hearing about this, I immediately decided that I had to go back to my grandmothers house, so that I can maximize the raise that they gave me. Commuting from New Jersey to New York City is do-able, but expensive. That extra money would only go back into trying to get to and from work. I set out to let my family know that I needed to return. I told my significant other about my decision, to which she seemed disappointed. I also told my mother, and she was devastated to even imagine me leaving her again...

3. Last night, April 19th, my relationship with my significant other ended. This summer we would have made two years together. It's hard for me to really comment on this because it's not the first time, but it will be the last. From the small contact we've had via text message since then, I don't think she took me seriously; now she knows differently. I'm numb to it at the moment.

4. Today, my grandmother told me that she does not want me moving back into her house. She told me that she does not want me coming in and out of her house, and that she is getting too old to handle the stress of me coming back. As if I am some flighty misanthrope that runs the streets with no regard for anything.

This all happened within one week. Good news met with resistance, drenched in disappointment and disaster.

Luckily, something else came through, and it's an option I am forced to explore.


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