Violence Causes Silence #PrayForOrlando
I am in love with a woman who is genuine, kind, selfless and beautiful. She is one of the strongest people that I know and she is scared.
She is scared to share the part of herself that I see every single day; it’s the part of her that loves me. The tragedy in Orlando is monumental. It is yet another display of how loving someone can get you killed. It’s the reason why my father tells me to keep my sexuality to myself and it’s the reason why my partner is uncomfortable holding my hand in the street.
Recent news reports have revealed that the Orlando shooter used gay dating apps and had visited the Pulse nightclub. From this we can assume that his uncontrollable self-hatred resulted in the death of so many people last weekend. This isn’t the first time that someone so ashamed of their feelings and desires has lashed out at others for being free and unfortunately it will not be the last.
We have to stop pressuring and judging people for how they look or who they choose to love because many times it just ends in violence. Masculinity has nothing to do with sexuality and I truly believe this is the heart of the matter for so many closeted men out there. You are no less of a man for loving another man just as I am no less of a woman for loving another woman.
My partner will continue to be scared. As I rant and rave about this senseless tragedy she sits next to me in complete silence, so far removed from what has happened to people just like her. She has nothing to say about events such as this because this isn’t her community. She could not and does not want to be aligned with a group under such figurative and literal fire. How could she want to be part of a group that is so unsafe? That can be shot down even in a place they call home.